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May 26, 2021

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Erin Schrader

Well hello internet, nice to meet you too. My name is Erin, or if you’re husband my name is E. I recently gave up caffeine because apparently getting a “be still” tattoo on my wrist many years ago wasn’t enough to tame my wild nerves. Literally, I am just learning how to sit still at the age of 34 years old and it is just as uncomfortable as I always envisioned it to be. Why sit when you can stand? Why stand when you can flail your arms in circles? Why flail your arms in circles when you can eat microwaved nachos and cheese? Never mind. 

The good news is that I finally scheduled a therapy session and I’m hoping she can help me understand why I hate being still [among a plethora of other “WTF” things floating around in my mind]. I just hope she lets me stand to talk when we figure this out. Another thing I need to figure out? How to get rid of this freaking margarita [aka lime] burn on my skin I got last week. Apparently squeezing 10 limes into a shot glass and then spilling said shot glass on your hands instead of in the pitcher of Moscow Mule you are trying to make doesn’t turn out well when going out in the sun afterward. Do I have blisters? Do GOLI Apple Cider Vinegar gummies make me have the healthiest bowel movements on the planet? The answer is yes to both my friends. 

On a serious note, I am very excited [also read: terrified] to talk to a therapist. I have never done such an activity before but I have to believe that expressing my feelings to more than two animals who roll around on dead worms could be life-giving and eye-opening. I shared recently on social media how I’ve been realizing as I get older that I find myself getting more and more bored with myself. Gone are the quirky, weird days of Erin but here is the serious, let me only converse with you in the form of questions and answers and be in bed by 9 pm Erin. I should clarify – I am totally fine with the 9 pm thing, that can stay. But when did my freak flag stop flying and where did it go? Can it be waved again and if so, where can I buy a pole to prop it up on!? 

So what else is going on? Aside from a whole lot of nothing, not much. Tonight we’re going to attempt to go wake surfing but currently outside the window there are white cap waves rolling all over so that could be interesting. Did I ever tell you about the time that I was learning to wake surf and face planted into the water but didn’t realize I was supposed to let go of the rope so the boat just kept dragging me face down in the water for awhile which all went up my nose and caused me to cry in a closet for hours in embarrassment? That’s a true story. I should stop subjecting myself to being around people, my nose can’t handle any more water. 

On that note, I’m off to get my hands into a Pringle can. It’s the party stack pack. Arms, I hope you’re ready to get low.

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  1. Lori says:

    Get an aloe plant. Break off a branch and rub the gel on your burn. It will make it feel so much better!

  2. Erin-I hope you’ve continued to learn to wake surf. It’s so much fun and laughing at oneself is part of it!

  3. Megan says:

    Love this. And TOTALLY can relate. I talked to a therapist after my postpartum got too bad. Greatest thing ever. I have found myself grabbing the comfy shirt instead of the fun loud one I would have worn 5 years ago….now I’m going to work kn being more fun too. Thanks for that😉

  4. Deb says:

    Umm… just enjoy the energy. If you have to move to express yourself, to keep your mind engaged, to feel like you, do it. Good luck with the therapist.

  5. Christine M says:

    Thanks for sharing. I’m a bit older than you but can totally relate to the bored with myself comment. Someone told me to always come from a place of
    Compassion. Compassion for yourself and for others in your life, compassion before judgment and that’s really helped me! Good luck with therapy Erin!

  6. LISA says:

    It’s good to see quirky Erin back. I feel we have lost you somewhere in your business growth. I used to love to come here and read your entries. Now I scroll thru the page and I’m gone in 10 seconds. I understand the growth of the business. but I miss the days of the daily outfit and the awkward hilarious posts about the most random thoughts!!!!

  7. Tracy says:

    Thanks for keeping it real. Its so easy to perceive social media influencers as the women that have it all together and everything is perfect. Truth be told that woman can’t possibly exist!

  8. Lauren says:

    I SO gave myself a lime burn a few summers back. It was awful!

  9. Robyn says:

    Going to a therapist is not a sign of weakness but one of strength. My therapist spoke those words to me and they hit me like a ton of bricks. I’m 48 years old and have been seeing a therapist for 12 years now. I began therapy after my sister passed away from cancer 12 years ago. Not only did my weekly appointments help me through grief but also with self-esteem issues, divorce and so much more. Keep strong and don’t second guess. Remember you’re here for a purpose. You bring sunshine to so many people! ☀️

  10. Stacy Sochocki says:

    Erin,
    You are anything but boring. I so enjoy your blog posts and the posts of the LIY team. You reinforce that it’s ok to not be ok and that going to bed at 9 pm is acceptable. Actually I turn the light out at 8:50. Keep on keeping on!
    ~Stacy

  11. Andrea Ward says:

    Oh! I had the same burn a few years ago. It is called Phytophotodermatitis. You need to get a bleaching cream with hydroquinone in it to bleach the skin back to normal. I know it sounds crazy, but my hands looked crazy until a dermatologist told me the same thing. 🙂 Just thought I would pass it along.

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